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I would not let go,

such grim determination.

For someone I hate.

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Should I abandon

The concept of survival

Now I live alone

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Standing on the bridge

That unites our two worlds

You should push me off

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Shiny car on drive

Beautifully designed object

At odds with nature

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I feel compelled to share this story with you although is an unusually post for me.   I feel writing it down may help me further understand the experience.    Many years ago I was taught a simple method of meditation, a method which I practice often and I find to be most effective.

I do not have any problem separating my perceived mind/soul from my physical form.  I can exist in a weightless state, free from any sense of my physical body; it is as if I am anesthetised but still fully conscious.    That place is often quite, it can be in tranquil, it can be in darkness or light, it can be an unrestrained playground for my imagination where I can fly or settle on a rock in the centre of an ocean, but it is always an experience of my making and has distinct atmospheric feel.

I was in my meditative dream state the other night, fully aware, awake, not dreaming, experiencing everything in full colour real life vision when an exceptional thing happened.    My meditated world peeled away, unzipped, folded away before my eyes and I entered something, somewhere exceptional.

I can only describe the place as having a physical serenity, being silent but not silent, incredibly beautiful but without any physical displays of beauty.   There was light everywhere, there appeared to be a vast stretch of smooth water below me but it was not water, I knew it was not water nor was there sky as I know it above me.   In fact the physical aspects of this experience where irrelevant, it was the sensory shockwave of experiencing this overwhelming emotional, physical and spiritual serenity which I cannot describe accurately to you.   So I will just say it was beautiful and unlike any experience I have ever had or likely to have again in this life.

I drifted, floated, I was contented, ecstatic, fearless, fascinated, overwhelmed by the enormity and power of how I was feeling; I was saturated by serenity, a tranquillity, a beauty; I felt I knew this place.

I do not know how long I experienced this state but I remember I heard my wife cough and I chose then to leave without regret because I knew I could and would return.

I just wanted to share this beautiful experience with you.

© Paul Nichol.  2015

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Neon light cascades

Actor of road rage taunts death

Stage for tragedy

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