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Tanka 23

Posted: December 1, 2013 in Poetry, Tanka
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My blogs followers

Interactive family?

Challenging feelings.

Difficult to comprehend,

I might matter to someone.

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© Paul Nichol    December 2013

Various poems can be found on my blog, please take a moment and explore.

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Blogging.

Communicate.

Write, draw, sing, play, share, help.

The mediums of our spirits,

reveals.

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© Paul Nichol 2013

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16th June

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A continuation from yesterdays ‘A note to myself’

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I have to question my motives for wanting to expose my children to the darkness of some of my poetry.  What purpose would it serve; parenthood should be about portraying the joys of life, I should protected them even from my own vanity and not to do so would be selfish.   Therefore, I will not be showing them my poetry, although I am going to be less secretive when it comes to my writing in the future.

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15 June

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Tomorrow is Fathers Day, a day for celebrating Fathers.  For me tomorrow will be a day of disclosure, for through my interaction here on WordPress, the encouragement and inspiration I have received from those I have encountered, I have made the decision to print and show my poetry to my three sons, so destroying the  wall of deceit that I myself have constructed and I sit behind when writing.

I know it will not be easy for me, but by posting this note to myself, I am at least recognising what I know must be done.  Moreover, what better day is there for a Father to unveil his secret poetic passion, than on Father’s Day?

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I have pushed myself today and I have left a few comments on other bloggers sites.  For me this was a bold action and  I now  know I must resist the temptation to hide once again in the shadows of self doubt.

I wrote this and posted it as an encouraging note to myself.

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Yesterday my wife converted to Catholicism.   She is a deeply religious person and I am delighted that she has finally found a church where she is spiritually, ethically and academically comfortable.  The ceremony was simple and its significance was profound for both of us, however in different ways.

I myself have never encountered God, nor do I believe I process the God gene that might allow me the psychological characteristics needed to believe in a deity, it could be, I have chosen not to see God, for to do so would have meant acknowledging vulnerability in the times in my life when I needed an inner, iron strength.   Have I in my past blinded myself so as not to recognise my infinite weaknesses, and in doing so, denied myself the opportunity of the religious experience, is it my deeds or my genes which has led me to ask this question?

Whatever the reason, what I can say is that, I recognised in the faces and actions of the congregation a devout dedication, an emphatic commitment far beyond my own comprehension of personal fulfilment, they were peaceful, where I was not.

To be absolved of all your past misdemeanours, to be relinquished of any guilt and to be freely forgiven without any retaliatory reprisals or psychological condemnation must be an amazing sensation for the beholder.  Was I envious?  No, but I was aware that such redemption was beyond my reach.

I am proud my wife is a Catholic and that she is now on her very special journey, and I love her as always with all my heart.

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update

Posted: May 11, 2013 in My Journey
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I know my welcome page is boring and that I should ‘sex-it-up’ with enticing links, sentences of salacious self-promotion, and the obligatory character enhancing photograph.   It’s just I haven’t the time.  Sorry.