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It would be so easy to ease your pain

No medicine is required

Just modest a word

A word like


Would do

Yet I fear this word

For it is a stopper that stopped

The expression of your outrage flowing

As it did once before upon me

The diversion of you

By this word



Banished you

Such a simple word

Am I beyond the salvation of words?

For the wounds inflicted

Are likely incurable

The denial of



Was pitiless

Yet if we were to speak

Would your old words pollute me still?


© Paul Nichol.  2016

I feel compelled to share this story with you although is an unusually post for me.   I feel writing it down may help me further understand the experience.    Many years ago I was taught a simple method of meditation, a method which I practice often and I find to be most effective.

I do not have any problem separating my perceived mind/soul from my physical form.  I can exist in a weightless state, free from any sense of my physical body; it is as if I am anesthetised but still fully conscious.    That place is often quite, it can be in tranquil, it can be in darkness or light, it can be an unrestrained playground for my imagination where I can fly or settle on a rock in the centre of an ocean, but it is always an experience of my making and has distinct atmospheric feel.

I was in my meditative dream state the other night, fully aware, awake, not dreaming, experiencing everything in full colour real life vision when an exceptional thing happened.    My meditated world peeled away, unzipped, folded away before my eyes and I entered something, somewhere exceptional.

I can only describe the place as having a physical serenity, being silent but not silent, incredibly beautiful but without any physical displays of beauty.   There was light everywhere, there appeared to be a vast stretch of smooth water below me but it was not water, I knew it was not water nor was there sky as I know it above me.   In fact the physical aspects of this experience where irrelevant, it was the sensory shockwave of experiencing this overwhelming emotional, physical and spiritual serenity which I cannot describe accurately to you.   So I will just say it was beautiful and unlike any experience I have ever had or likely to have again in this life.

I drifted, floated, I was contented, ecstatic, fearless, fascinated, overwhelmed by the enormity and power of how I was feeling; I was saturated by serenity, a tranquillity, a beauty; I felt I knew this place.

I do not know how long I experienced this state but I remember I heard my wife cough and I chose then to leave without regret because I knew I could and would return.

I just wanted to share this beautiful experience with you.

© Paul Nichol.  2015


Click this link to bring up the petition page above, give your name and email.  It will hurt you much less than the 950 lashes this man has yet to receive for voicing his views.    Please.

Action Aid

13th october



I have never had a set plan for any aspect of my life as they are nothing but aspirations, as life is unpredictable.    Truly ‘Living in the Moment’ is far healthier than pretending to live the moment whilst wishfully anticipating a future that may never ever materialise.

What is a lifestyle plan anyway and why would anyone really want one?    Is not life, more than a list of social achievements for others to admire or even emulate.  What is the point in accumulating wealth if it creates a sense of fear that it is not enough or that someone might steal it from you, or traveling the world ticking off the countries visited, if you have never journeyed into your soul?


Please read the original blog post ‘Which Are You: 49% or 51%?  that inspired this response on ‘Eric Tonningsen’s “Awakening to Awareness”



© Paul Nichol.  September 2014